He'd like to think he can give Kyosuke at least that much. Following a direct order should be easy by now. In the brief silence, the entire sky both sounds and feels like it's falling down around them.
But what's the point? What's Kyosuke going to do, forgive him for being a lying, cowardly fuckup because he managed to keep his mouth shut for two seconds? Yeah right. This is already the end. This is what he'd lied to prevent, and in lying, he'd sealed his fate and ensured that it would happen someday. It's his own shitty luck, and his own goddamn fault, that that day is today, right when Kyosuke needs it least.
He doesn't have a thing left in him that Kyosuke does need.
The realization makes him feel empty and sick. The only thing he's ever had inside of him is gone now, and he doesn't even know how to begin to dig down and find something else to replace it.
Around him, the heavy, cold wetness in the air finally begins to pour down as rain, soaking him—nice complement to the lightning, huh? They'd always been a good team.]
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He'd like to think he can give Kyosuke at least that much. Following a direct order should be easy by now. In the brief silence, the entire sky both sounds and feels like it's falling down around them.
But what's the point? What's Kyosuke going to do, forgive him for being a lying, cowardly fuckup because he managed to keep his mouth shut for two seconds? Yeah right. This is already the end. This is what he'd lied to prevent, and in lying, he'd sealed his fate and ensured that it would happen someday. It's his own shitty luck, and his own goddamn fault, that that day is today, right when Kyosuke needs it least.
He doesn't have a thing left in him that Kyosuke does need.
The realization makes him feel empty and sick. The only thing he's ever had inside of him is gone now, and he doesn't even know how to begin to dig down and find something else to replace it.
Around him, the heavy, cold wetness in the air finally begins to pour down as rain, soaking him—nice complement to the lightning, huh? They'd always been a good team.]
—If it'd make you feel better to kill me, do it.